Osman Hassan (former Muslim)

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The following is a testimony of a Muslim leaving Islam.
Osman Hassan
Personal information
Full name Musa
Country of origin    Somalia Flag of Somalia.png
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residence    		United Kingdom Flag of United Kingdom.png
Gender    Male
Age    23
Influences    Richard Dawkins
Faith Information
Current faith Atheist
Left Islam at age 22
Parents' faith Islam
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[edit] Testimony of Leaving Islam: Part 1

Hi, I am a 22 year old Londoner raised in a very religious Muslim household. I left Islam 3 months ago. I was a devout Muslim through most my teenage years. I prayed, said bismillah before eating anything and followed the pillars of Islam. I'm never 100% sure about the future but I was always convinced (about 99%) I had the right religion and other religions/beliefs were wrong. I would even pray optional Sunnah prayers beside obligatory prayers to please Allah. I went to an Islamic boarding school to learn more. I never once imagined I would become an atheist. I was sure I would die a Muslim.

As a child I was always philosophical. While my cousins were playing super-Nintendo I would often seclude myself thinking about the process of thinking, if you know what I mean. Whenever I prayed I had this indescribable happy feeling. Allah loves me and I love Him. That's the most inner peace I ever had. Therefore I still completely understand why a Muslim is so sincere in faith. My 1st goal was the pleasure of Allah. I even sacrificed gap year a-levels at college for my devotions. I said why are people so ignorant of god?. I even felt sorry for non-believers

Whenever I read the Quran I was amazed at its beauty. However, throughout these sincerities there were always some unanswered questions. I remember as a kid when my mother first told me about eternal hell if I didn't follow prayers. I did not understand the cruelty then but I thought I would when I became an adult. BUT when I became an adult I still didn't understand how a supposedly most merciful deity could torture you eternally for not believing in the unseen/ghaib(quran2.3). Now, this sounds like blind faith. I thought have u ever seen the disfigured face of a 30 second burn victim? How can Allah justify that? Is He a barbaric sadist? I shunned any of these thoughts and said it's the devils tricks

From the ages of 15 and 19 I was very religious. Even my friends called me mutawa (or pious). BUT at age 20 however I started questioning everything. Is Muhammad setting a good example by choosing a child Aisha (she was actually 8 years old when he had sex with her as Arab calendars are shorter) as his favorite wife? Why did Muhammad indiscriminately kill the males of a whole tribe called Banu Quraytha and took their women as slaves? I think Muslims pick and choose their sunnah/habits

I then thought I should distance myself from hadith, saying why do Muslims TRUST some guy born 200 years after Muhammad, called Bukhari? Who put some contradictory and irrational narrations together? Bukhari is mentioned nowhere in the Quran! Hadiths are exploitive, unreliable, cultural traditions with ridiculous chains of transmissions (A said that B said that C said x). I thought its incredible people believe the hadith which claims early humans were 90ft tall and the wings of flies have medicinal qualities, something impossible. Islamic rulings make almost everything haram - even masturbation and music!

There is not an animal (that lives) on the earth, nor a being that flies on its wings, but (forms part of) communities like you. Nothing have we omitted from the Book, and they (all) shall be gathered to their Lord in the end.

So I heard about Quran-only Muslims and decided I'm a Qur'anist Muslim from now on. But I was in a minority denomination. All this cast even more doubts over Islam when I heard about even more denominations. shias, ibadi, sufi, ijtihadi, salafi etc. and disagreeing scholars/mullahs contradicting each other over fiqh/law and other topics in Islam. For example, there's probably a dozen interpretations on what beat wife Q4;34 means.

I wrestled with the devil falling into depression, asking for a sign to prove to me that He exists, and if so tell me which path is right. No!!! God was testing me!!! This was all just a test of character from Allah!!! Stay strong in imaan/faith!!

I repeatedly watched Qur'anic miracle videos until I stumbled on a video by youtube user discussIslam (an ex-Muslim scholar) and answering-Islam.org challenging the accuracy of Quran. All this content was very rational and mirrored exactly my concerns with Islam. Beat your wife? Hate and laugh at kaafirs/infidels? Honor killings? Homophobic? Stone to death? Behead apostates? Amputations? Floggings? What morality is that? Mainstream Muslims try say this is un-Islamic but this is false. There's many qur'anic and hadith verses encouraging violence towards non-Muslims

The so-called miracles in the Qur'an now seemed absurd, and required very wishful thinking and innovations. On top of that, I never received a sign from god to remove my doubts. I only find that out as I looked at the pros and cons rather than a biased Islamic point of view as most Muslims research it.

WOW. I was stunned!! Was Allah just another god like Vishnu/Krishna, Christ, Buddha, Zeus, Yahweh and the spaghetti monster? Was Muhammad just a schizophrenic man with compulsive disorder who hallucinated or lusted power? What evidence is there for Islam? Who is al-Qaida? Why did Muhammad's own uncle Abu talib who raised and loved him disbelieve in him?

I asked my mother why she was a Muslim. She said (in a convincing voice) it just sounds right to praise lord of the worlds. But does emotion equal logic? Is Allah just a blanket of comfort to explain the unknown?


This time I read the Qur'an with an open mind back to front but this time concluded it was a superstitious fear of the unknown nature of death and a tool of control from paranoid folklore medieval desert people. Religion in general was given too much respect it does not deserve. I can never accept that my non-Muslim friend who is the kindest person I have ever met would burn eternally for kufr/disbelief. I have seen non-Muslims with much more empathy than Muslims. I now saw the Qur'an as a contradictory work of poetry created in an age when poetry was a paramount and conspicuous part of society.

Why would God protect the Qur'an but not the Bible anyway? It doesn't make sense for god to protect the last book but not the predecessors. It's obvious He wants to see a little fight between all religions. I saw religion as something that divided mankind into us and them. I found the shahadah (Islamic declaration of belief) ridiculous by testifying to be an eye-witness to something that happened 14 centuries previous. Isn't that a false oath in rational environments? Do Muslims have a crystal ball to accurately observe the past? Is god so shallow to aimlessly want you to gratifyingly bend/bow 5 times daily in the direction of a cubicle building in Saudi Arabia or suffer consequences of severe unbearable physical agony/torment for eternity? Even if I was religious and went to heaven, what if my some of my family was in hell? Wouldn't I be sad anyway? Religion uses guilt as an excellent form of control.

Why do Muslims treat women as if their bodies are like obscene, disgraceful, humiliating, notorious, vulgar and wicked belongings of men that have to obey? Didn't god design you? I have been to Arab gulf states like Abu Dhabi and this segregation is a cause of a lot of homosexual activity there (even more than the west) to the point some forms of homosexuality is accepted among sexually frustrated youth. One look at shari'a law in Saudi Arabia proves it's the most barbaric invention since Nazism. I now looked at things done in the name of Islam and was in disgust. The violence depicted in the Qur'an is atrocious, bloodthirsty, heartless, and depraved. Kids are not given a choice to be Muslim, but rather forced to memorize the Qur'an. We all know that the Saudi royal family paid Maurice Bucaille to make the Qur'an sound scientific and how each revised Qur'anic translation is edited to keep in touch with scientific developments. There's hundreds of errors in the Qur'an but you'll only see it if you're prepared to.


Its inhumane how Muslims (according to Qur'an 83:34) will laugh at non-Muslims who are in hell. How can it amuse you that someone is being tortured? If Muhammad's splitting of the moon, Moses' sea passage and Jesus' raising of dead miracles really happened why don't I ever see such miracles? I don't think a classical language such as Arabic can be a message for all of mankind. The earliest Qur'an's don't have diacritical marks, hence cannot surely be the word of god. Hajj (pilgrimage) is an economical tourist industry for Arabs and Muslims have been conned into thinking its spiritual.

I knew I would never believe in Islam again. Allah, if anything, sounds barbaric and brutal and enjoys human suffering when we didn't even ask to be born. Extraordinary claims require extraordinary evidence beyond reasonable doubt; something no religion could offer.

Evil supposedly started when Iblis (Satan) did NOT bow to Adam. This contradicts the main message of tawhid in the Qur'an. Maybe Allah can't make up his mind? One time you should NOT bow to creation and another time you HAVE to bow to Adam (creation). Everything in the Qur'an now looked to me as everything I'd expect a medieval egotistic conceited know-it-all swollen-headed wise guy with compulsive disorder to say, and Muslims looked to me like prude faith-head parrots and sheep who imitate whatever they are told to do. No wonder, as Muslims are indoctrinated since birth and have the adhan blasted into their ears 5 times daily. Religious people simply have an exaggerated self-opinion to not think chimpanzees are our cousins. There is no evidence for an afterlife whatsoever.

Is it a coincidence that all 25 Islamic prophets and scriptures come from the same tiny area of the Middle East? Did Allah forget about the rest of the world? NO, I'm pretty sure god is not that incompetent. I think verses such as Alif laam miim were only introduced to give a mystical and spiritual feeling to the Qur'an with claims of only Allah knows it meaning. And Muslims actually believe that explanation. Muhammad simply had a great imagination and is the Arab version of J.R. Tolkien, Charles Dickens, Shakespeare and J.k. Rowling.

You clearly have to (Qur'an 2:3) believe in the unseen - in other words, BLIND FAITH like all religions

Despite all this, I did WANT god to exist - who wants to become non-existent? But I'd rather choose to follow something that has evidence rather than ancient mythical, contradictory, fictional and delusionary fairy tales. Vedas, Qur'an, Bible, Kitab Aqdas and the Book of Mormons are all the same to me. Sunni Muslim, Shia Muslim, Qur'anist Muslim, Catholic Christian, Protestant Christian, Baptist Christian, Hindu, Sikh, Buddhist, Jew, Baha'i faith, Jainist, traditionalist, Rastafarians are all emotional attachments to things we can't comprehend. I think Allah is supposed to send an angel or something as evidence.... but he doesn't....

Sometimes I still think what if I was wrong about my parents' religion? What if there is a god? But those thoughts fade away when I contemplate there shouldn't even be one flaw in a true religion and god would understand my concerns, if he exists (which I doubt). I don't care if a religion has the most followers in the world or only 20 adherents, as every religion claims to be 100% true. I think Muhammad had compulsive disorder. I think the Qur'an is a fictional medieval version of Harry Potter. I think Muslims have been conned into thinking hajj is spiritual rather than a tourist industry. Baha'ullah might have been the last prophet for all I know.

I then read a book called the greatest show on earth by Richard Dawkins who made a lot more sense to me. Cosmology and evolution have factual evidence that that suggests Adam and Eve fairy tales couldn't have happened and concludes that evolution by natural selection can explain apparent design in nature. The temptation to attribute the appearance of a design to actual design itself is thus a false one. I'm open to the possibility of god existing but not in the form of religion. I prefer the opinion of an Oxford university professor, biological theorist and academic who is by far the #1 intellectual in Britain, than some middle age desert dweller nobody alive has seen, leaving only speculation. Call me sceptical, but that's me.

I disbelieve in organized religion in the same way I disbelieve the sky will be green tomorrow. I've never seen an angel, devil or god. I don't think god is a delusion because I hate him, it's simply I looked at the world around me and don't see intelligent design. Earth is at some insignificant part of a galaxy. But the curiosity and boastful nature of mankind has made some of us exaggerate ourselves beyond proportion.


When I die, I'm truly sure that's it. There's no such thing as an afterlife


That's my story.

Ex-Muslim atheist, Peace

[edit] Testimony of Leaving Islam: Part 2

If I follow any religion it has to be perfect. According to the Qur'an, Allah is very keen to show miracles such as the moon splitting, raising the dead or dividing the oceans. Why don't we see such miracles today, now that we have cameras? I think it's obvious that none of those miracles really happened. We all know how human lies can spread very quickly to suddenly become 'facts'.

I found some scientific errors in the Qur'an which I don't think befits god's TRUE religion.


Errors in the Qur'an


1. Semen comes from the backbone and ribs

6. He is created from a drop emitted-
7. Proceeding from between the backbone and the ribs:

This is false. Semen comes from the testicles.

2. Everything created in pairs

And of every thing We have created pairs: That ye may receive instruction.

This is false. Some animals are asexual.

3. Thoughts of the breast (heart)

Lo! now they fold up their breasts that they may hide (their thoughts) from Him. At the very moment when they cover themselves with their clothing, Allah knoweth that which they keep hidden and that which they proclaim. Lo! He is Aware of what is in the breasts (of men).

This is false. Humans think with the brain (pun intended lol).

4. Ants supposedly talk with solomon

18. At length, when they came to a (lowly) valley of ants, one of the ants said: "O ye ants, get into your habitations, lest Solomon and his hosts crush you (under foot) without knowing it."
19. So he smiled, amused at her speech; and he said: "O my Lord! so order me that I may be grateful for Thy favours, which thou hast bestowed on me and on my parents, and that I may work the righteousness that will please Thee: And admit me, by Thy Grace, to the ranks of Thy righteous Servants."

Ants and humans cannot speak with each other.

5. Stars are 'missiles to drive away devils'

And we have, (from of old), adorned the lowest heaven with Lamps, and We have made such (Lamps) (as) missiles to drive away the Evil Ones, and have prepared for them the Penalty of the Blazing Fire.

This is false. Stars are simply balls of plasma gases.

6. There's supposedly 7 earths (or planets)

Allah is He Who created seven Firmaments and of the earth a similar number. Through the midst of them (all) descends His Command: that ye may know that Allah has power over all things, and that Allah comprehends, all things in (His) Knowledge.

This is false. There's actually 8 planets and 4 dwarf planets.

7. Sun sets in a muddy pool

Until, when he reached the setting of the sun, he found it set in a spring of murky water: Near it he found a People: We said: "O Zul-qarnain! (thou hast authority,) either to punish them, or to treat them with kindness."

The sun is millions of kilometers from earth, so that's impossible.

8. The sun and moon orbit the earth

And He it is Who created the night and the day, and the sun and the moon. They float, each in an orbit.

This is false. The moon orbits the earth. The sun does NOT float (orbit) the earth.

9. The shape of the earth, and earthquakes prevention

"And the earth We have spread out (like a carpet); set thereon Mountains firm and immovable"

Firstly, the earth is not flat like a carpet, its spherical. Secondly, mountains don't prevent earthquakes.

10. Why the Qur'an was 'revealed' in Arabic

We have made it a Qur'an in Arabic, that ye may be able to understand (and learn wisdom).

This is false. There's 7000 languages on earth. Classical arabic is hard, even for arabs to understand.

11. Muslims are protected in Mecca

Allah made the Ka'ba, the Sacred House, an asylum of security for men, as also the Sacred Months, the animals for offerings, and the garlands that mark them: That ye may know that Allah hath knowledge of what is in the heavens and on earth and that Allah is well acquainted with all things.

This is false. Juhayman al-Otaybi or abu Tahir al-Janabi, killed hundreds of Muslim pilgrims without intervention from Allah.

12. Planets and stars are subject to humans

And He has subjected to you, as from Him, all that is in the heavens and on earth: Behold, in that are Signs indeed for those who reflect.

This is false. No planet or star has any intentions with us. Everything is subject to gravity.

13. The Qur'an is a complete book

There is not an animal in the earth, nor a flying creature flying on two wings, but they are peoples like unto you. We have neglected nothing in the Book (of Our decrees). Then unto their Lord they will be gathered.

This is false. The Qur'an does not describe prayer and many other things. Hence, we have 6 major hadith collections.

14. The womb has 3 layers

He created you from one being, then from that (being) He made its mate; and He hath provided for you of cattle eight kinds. He created you in the wombs of your mothers, creation after creation, in a threefold gloom. Such is Allah, your Lord. His is the Sovereignty. There is no Allah save Him. How then are ye turned away?

This is false. There's at least 4 layers. 1. endometrium, 2. myometrium, 3. perimetrium, 4. peritoneum. Besides the cervix uteri and corpus uteri.

15. Shooting stars attack/guard against devils

6. We have indeed decked the lower heaven with beauty (in) the stars,-
7. (For beauty) and for guard against all obstinate rebellious evil spirits,

This is false. They are simply meteors which survive impact of the earths atmosphere. Its a natural object deriving from small astronomical objects.

16. The sun runs to a fixed resting place

And the sun runneth on unto a resting-place for him. That is the measuring of the Mighty, the Wise.

This is false. The sun doesn't rest anywhere.

17. Fitting 1 pair of each species of animal onto a boat

(Thus it was) till, when Our commandment came to pass and the oven gushed forth water, We said: Load therein two of every kind, a pair (the male and female), and thy household, save him against whom the word hath gone forth already, and those who believe. And but a few were they who believed with him.

This is false. There are millions of land animals. There's no way 1 man can catch them all to fit on a boat.

18. Everything created perfect

Who created the seven heavens one above another; you see no incongruity in the creation of the Beneficent Allah; then look again, can you see any disorder?

This is false. 100 million people on earth have diagnosed disabilities.

19. All seafood is for human consumption

Lawful to you is the pursuit of water-game and its use for food,- for the benefit of yourselves and those who travel; but forbidden is the pursuit of land-game;- as long as ye are in the sacred precincts or in pilgrim garb. And fear Allah, to Whom ye shall be gathered back.

This is false. Many fish are deadly poisonous. For example, the puffer fish.

20. "He has only forbidden you carrion, blood and pork"

He hath forbidden you only carrion, and blood, and swineflesh, and that which hath been immolated to (the name of) any other than Allah. But he who is driven by necessity, neither craving nor transgressing, it is no sin for him. Lo! Allah is Forgiving, Merciful.

Is Allah irresponsible or foolish? Can we eat poisonous animals like the box jelly fish? Gila monster? Centipide? Coral? Monksheed? Jimson weed? These are all deadly venomous.

21. Plants grow by water

Who hath appointed the earth a resting-place for you, and the sky a canopy; and causeth water to pour down from the sky, thereby producing fruits as food for you. And do not set up rivals to Allah when ye know (better).

This is false. Fruit/plants needs photosynthesis from the sun to grow.

22. Allah answers prayers

And your Lord hath said: Pray unto Me and I will hear your prayer. Lo! those who scorn My service, they will enter hell, disgraced.

This is false. There's no evidence that prayer answers needs. It's always the same 50/50.

23. "We send the fecundating winds"

And We send the fecundating winds, then cause the rain to descend from the sky, therewith providing you with water (in abundance), though ye are not the guardians of its stores.

This is false. Winds often are the cause of extreme deterioration of land and soil erosion.

24. Relationships between Christians and Jews

O ye who believe! take not the Jews and the Christians for your friends and protectors: They are but friends and protectors to each other. And he amongst you that turns to them (for friendship) is of them. Verily Allah guideth not a people unjust.

This is false. There are many examples of Christian anti-semitism.

25. All animals live in communities

There is not an animal (that lives) on the earth, nor a being that flies on its wings, but (forms part of) communities like you. Nothing have we omitted from the Book, and they (all) shall be gathered to their Lord in the end.

This is false. Some animals are solitary loners like leopards or jaguars.

26. Ignorance in human biology

Then fashioned We the drop a clot, then fashioned We the clot a little lump, then fashioned We the little lump bones, then clothed the bones with flesh, and then produced it as another creation. So blessed be Allah, the Best of creators!

Ignores the female egg. Thinks the (obvious) sperm creates life. plus, men are NOT created from a blood clot.

27. Mountains can think, fear, and trust?

We did indeed offer the Trust to the Heavens and the Earth and the Mountains; but they refused to undertake it, being afraid thereof: but man undertook it;- He was indeed unjust and foolish;

This is false. Mountains are simply soil formed by the movement of lithospheric plates.

28. The sky, a canopy to protect us?

And we have made the sky a roof withheld (from them). Yet they turn away from its portents.

If this was true then, how did the dinosaurs go extinct by a huge asteroid?

29. Allah 'sends' rain to earth when he feels like doing so

That sends down (from time to time) rain from the sky in due measure;- and We raise to life therewith a land that is dead; even so will ye be raised (from the dead);-

This is false. Rain comes from moisture from the oceans evaporating, condensed into drops.

30. "life of the world is play and amusement!"

The life of this world is but play and amusement: and if ye believe and guard against Evil, He will grant you your recompense, and will not ask you (to give up) your possessions.

This is false. Most of the world lives in poverty.

31. "Approach men lustfully rather than women? Nay, you are a people who act ignorantly"

Would ye really approach men in your lusts rather than women? Nay, ye are a people (grossly) ignorant!

This is false. Children are BORN hermaphrodites and transgender.

32. The night "outstrips" the day

It is not for the sun to overtake the moon, nor doth the night outstrip the day. They float each in an orbit.

This is false. The night is simply the absence of light from the sun.

33. The earth created before the universe

He it is Who created for you all that is in the earth. Then turned He to the heaven, and fashioned it as seven heavens. And He is knower of all things.

This is false. The earth was formed after the universe.

34. "Moon in the midst of 7 heavens"

15. "'See ye not how Allah has created the seven heavens one above another,
16. "'And made the moon a light in their midst, and made the sun as a (Glorious) Lamp?

Firstly, there's no 7 heavens, but billions of galaxies. Secondly, the moon is the nearest natural object to us, so is NOT in the midst of stars.

35. How many days of creation?
Qur'an 10:3 says "created the heavens and earth in Six Days", but according to Qur'an 41:9-12 IT ADDS UP TO 8 DAYS!!

36. How long is Allah's day?
Qur'an 22:47 says Allah's day = 1000 days, but according to Qur'an 70:4 Allah's day = 50000 days!

37. Does Allah forgive shirk?
Qur'an 4:48 says Allah does NOT forgive shirk, but according to Qur'an 4:153 Allah DOES forgive shirk!


My Conclusion


Even if the Qur'an was flawless, it still doesn't mean it's the word of god. Many other religious scriptures claim miracles too, such as Vedas, Aqdas etc. God may exist, but I don't think an afterlife exists.


Ex-Muslim Atheist

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